|
[11 Mar 2006|02:44pm] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
 apprehensive |
] |
| [ |
music |
| |
free bird |
] |
idk main.
this isn't fun anymore.
I know i've been absent to most of you,
well I swear i'll try to change that.
flashbacks are all i've been having latley.
this shit sucks.
|
|
|
[29 Dec 2005|12:05am] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
 discontent |
] |
| [ |
music |
| |
i miss my dawgs |
] |
 I can't pull myself out of my bed. I don't know how to stop this. and I don't know how to make this better anymore. I can't keep procrastinating. I don't know how to let this go. I need to let this go. I can't put the fucking past behind me. and I hate myself for this. I know that this is all my fault. you won't see my face in february. apparently i've learned nothing from past mistakes. i'm really sick. and it's not okay that the mailman is becoming my best friend again. jessika= self destructive.
|
|
|
[29 Nov 2005|07:34pm] |
|
did ya do it?
|
|
| whateva, whateva. |
[15 Nov 2005|04:11pm] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
 :o) |
] |
| [ |
music |
| |
clap your hands say yeah |
] |
" SUP, I'M SCENE? "
fire drill, in the rain. wtf?
I had to watch 2 birthing videos today.
one lady had a natural birth (with NO drugs)
and the other had a c section.
yah, I literally threw up in my mouth a little bit.
this weekend is going to be sweet.
hey. I like you.
|
|
| iknowthatitisfreezingbutithinkwehavetowalk. |
[30 Oct 2005|10:35pm] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
 pissed off |
] |
| [ |
music |
| |
get up kids |
] |
it's really simple, if you don't want to be my friend.. then don't talk to me.
I'm sick of hearing things and then when I confont people about them they "don't know what i'm talking about." I'm sick of all of my "friends" ditching me for there boyfriends and i'm sick of bending over backwards for people who don't give two shits about me. and before you even start to blame all of this on Glenn, this has nothing to do with him and i'm not using him as an excuse for anything anymore and it's not fair that you all still do. i've kept quiet for a really long time and theres no point for me to anymore. If i've changed too much for you to be my friend, then I don't care and I don't want you to be my friends anyways. Bitch at me 'cause i'm putting all of this on livejournal I don't care. It's the only way all of you fuckers will actually listen to what I have to say.
okay, go talk shit now. :o)
|
|
|
[29 Oct 2005|03:51pm] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
:o) |
] |
| [ |
music |
| |
amber pacific |
] |
Pretending to recall the way it was last Fall, for lack of better days.
I think this time of year, you see everything too clear,
( but still can't understand a thing. )
|
|
|
[02 Sep 2005|02:00pm] |
|
I got my fucking phone back. 425-5250, so fucking call me.
|
|
| 5oclock&hickies. |
[13 Aug 2005|12:33am] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
 i'm gonna kill her. |
] |
okay.
I owe no one any explaniations, & i'm not going to appologize for much.
{ except to jessika&jules&bobby&brian& mike. especially mike, thx for drying my tears }
Glenn & I are no longer together & my heart is no longer beating. I'm telling you all right now not to tell me i'm gonna be okay. & especially don't say that I knew it was going to happen. 'cause that just makes me feel worse.
I wasted 6 months of my life on someone who didn't, doesn't .. wudev love me or care about me. or have any sort of respect for me. I don't know what to do from here, & I don't know who I am anymore. That kid was my everything, but forgivness is something I will never be able to offer him. I'ma faggot for writting this & for putting this on livejournal but I don't feel like repeating myself 100 million fucking times.
sorry to anyones night I ruined last night. Johanna, i'm really sorry. no cops will be called though. & also, I dropped my phone in a nice big fucking glass of water, & it will no longer work. so if you would like to communicate with me at all comment or something.
& i'm not okay. so don't ask.
EDIT// yeh. I don't know how i'm doing this. But I am. Don't fucking bring my fucking family into this shit dude. & the last thing that I need right now is my friends not trusting me. I've been a bitch latley & i'll probably continue to be. whatever. i don't like alot of you kids. don't be two faced dude. if you wanna be my friend, then yr gonna have to fucking pick sides.
|
|
|
[11 Aug 2005|01:56pm] |
|
DUNZO.
|
|
| the smoke alarm is going off & there's a cigarette, STILL BURNING. |
[03 Aug 2005|05:05am] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
 nostalgic |
] |
| [ |
music |
| |
c-murda, you know ;o) |
] |
5 months today.
sweet right?
7 days left.
sore throat, puke stained carpet, the best grilled chesse sandwhich i've ever eaten, game& kanye, it's not all bad.
i woulda been here afta snoop,
But i slowed down and showed timbaland how to iron a khaki suit.
someone bring me some candy.
|
|
| anerexicmirror. |
[28 Jul 2005|10:04am] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
 i wish. |
] |
| [ |
music |
| |
relient k |
] |
I can't do a love song like the way it's meant to be
I can't do everything but I'd do anything for you
Juliet all I can do is be in love with you
& all I do is miss you and the way we used to be
( ily )
|
|
|
[15 Jul 2005|07:31am] |
|
FRIENDS CUT.
if you never comment, yr cut.If you never update, yr cut. If you update way to fucking much with stupid pointless shit with no cuts& nothing intresting, yr cut. If you added me just to make yr friends page longer, yr cut. & if it's yr old journal, it's cut. k.thx.bye.
|
|
|
[05 Jul 2005|12:15pm] |
fuck doctors, & fuck white rooms, fuck throwing up, & fuck summer.
my basement,cigarettes, coffee, caprisuns& the old get up kids cd.. my new guide to survival.
fuck symbalizam.
|
|
| navigation |
| [ |
viewing |
| |
most recent entries |
] |
| [ |
go |
| |
earlier |
] |
|
|
|
|
![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif){kind=small}
wastedn_ready's journal
anxious
2 30 mgs.
sore
